It hit me first when I was doing Computer Science Engineering at St. Josephs. I was not the stereotyped snob from Churck Park yet I could not handle the mini-culture shock. I literally went into depression at the lack of having friends I could communicate with in English during class hours. Studies was not a concern as I desperately tried to fit in and that was the biggest mistake I made.Failing a few papers meant special classes and staying back in college *every* day.
I transferred my credits from St. Josephs to S.R.M.Switched to Biotechnology from Computer Science. And I had no idea where I was headed. I knew zilch about Biotechnology.Zilch about Biology.And completely lost on where I was headed. I was living one day at a time.
The second time is..right now.
My project is as lost as I am. We have our so called 'Finalish Thirdish Review' tommorrow and we dont have results to present.
I have no credible admits to my name. All my so called 'Safe Universities' have rejected me in the worst possible way.
I have three more universities left to hear from. Davis, TAMU and Purdue and I do not expect to get into any of them.
I wonder where I've made mistakes now
Perhaps done more research in the course of my program?
Maybe opted for Biomedical or Bio-engineering instead of Food Science and Technology?
Join the bandwagon and go to Eastern Michigan for 'Cell and Molecular Biology' and then transfer somewhere else?
*cough* Eastern Michigan?
I'm better than that right?
Sit back and wait for my last three rejects to come through?
Stay back a year and do more research, apply again?
Apply to the UK this time?
Apply for a different program?
What about Enology and the vineyards and the wine tasting classes?
Blech!
My life is the pits.
The next time someone comes and cries to me about a reject, I'll ask them to close their eyes and imagine getting six rejects in two weeks.
Welcome to my life.
27 comments:
sigh. SRM, biotech. siiiiiiiigh. i was in SRM. and i'm doing biomedical engineering now. and i'm in michigan, freaky. but just fyi, getting your credits after the first semester transferred from Emich to Umich ann arbor, isn't a bad option to exercise.
It's easier said than done, but rejects are always their loss. At least as a person who considers pursuing a serious graduate program, paying some serious money for it, one is bound to take this shit a little more seriously. Good luck on the waiting game, it sucks to play it. But one's gotto do what one's gotto do, yea?! Might as well do it and get done with it !
On a lighter note, reviews were always a joke in college :)
admit. next week. for sure. take heart.
Looking for your blog on how the US sucks in a few months from now and you being a patriotic Indian then, cussing all the deserters who left India...lol..
Buck UP, suchitra..I never thought you were the kind of person to be bogged down by a few universities saying no...
There are lots of other options availible, US isn't the only country with standard colleges..there is UK, Australia and it won't hurt to look at options in India...
Regarding the project, everyone seems to be on the same boat..I have no idea how to dish out a standard project before April 13th :-(
Everything is going to be okay. I had 9 rejects and 1 admit even with a very high gre score.
@ schmetterling- I've seen you in college and Anoki before :-) I hate this waiting game. I think I'm going to ask my mom to find a husband for me. And the review..turned out to be a two minute oral presentation!
@ anon- Tell me who you are cos if I dont get an admit I might kick you in your crown jewels..Patriotism does kick in once you leave doesnt it.
@ ganesh- The ones who are actually doing research are not getting any results..I hope we pull through this year..any idea when college is opening?
@ manoj- I dont wanttttttttttt any more rejects..my poor soul cant take it..what did i do wrong?!!
college and anokhi eh? :) damn, i miss anokhi. i stopped going there after a while , i don't even know why. wht bus were you on,btw?
still am on 55 :-)... going to anoki in a bit.after almost six months..! used to love it for the fact that no one used to come there..its become another amethyst now
;) Juniors always know seniors..not the other way roung
"put one smoke" for me :P damn, i miss college now.and the crappy canteen outside royal inn. it's all your fault!!!
Hmm..So u are well enough matured to face what ever the failure to come to ur way..Real happiness in life is converting the failure in to sucess, Try hard buddy u can get in the course u want. Dont get stressed r disappointed, There may be some reason for u not getting the university to want. All the Best in Life.
since we haved moved off the education bit and onto i know u from the bus bit... :P my bro is still dying in the college :P and completely agree with the anokhi becoming another amyethyst..sighhhhh
annnddd we are sailing in the same ' i dont know whr my life is headed boat' the course i want to take up has aldready been filled in by students on the waiting list from the pervious year. gotta love life.
ouch. the uncertainties.
@ schmetterling- i used to love the chicken sandwiches over there..always called it the 'bus' canteen for some odd reason..
@ thenraj- I definately do not believe that there is a mistake from my side. And I console myself by saying "someone has put kannu on me"
@ baliga - I was quite excited about the upgraded menu at Anoki..verrriii cool :-)I actually had a 'Cranberry and Citrus Freezer' that completely sucked but it was a nice change from the Iced tea. Sat there for two hours and it felt superrrrrr good!
a mini srm reunion huh? the only thing tht cud b tolerated was the 5rs sweet lime:P!
dont have non-veg at srm.its actually canine meat.we once had a interview of sorts with the guy in the canteen there and he had to admit this.
So its the dog's flesh that is served as chicken there.
And don worry abt d admits.Aggieland is gonna call u for sure!
yeah, i heard about the canine meat thing too. anokhi has a new menu? wow. and it was prolly the bus canteen because that's the way everyone normally walks through to go to class from the bus, through the new canteen through royal inn. i had to drink the coffee there every morning. much to my boyfrnd's ..well ex-boyfrnd's disgust.
@ gayathri- Great..NOW you tell me!
Well, I hope someone calls me soon cos I might just about have a nervous breakdown!
@ schmetterling- "Wow"- Thats the same reaction you get when you
look at the prices.
Sometimes when you've been in a relationship long enough,you forget you are out of it :-)
The smiley face doesnt seem very appropriate..Hmmm
It's true though, and I'm not entirely sure if I'm in denial right now, or just plain stupid. I do know though,that more often than not, days pass by on autopilot. General public opinion on the matter however is that things will change soon enough. :)
Anokhi was my favorite spot for scented lemon/mint/chamomile tea. And the occasional pasta, which was so 'competitively' priced :P
Dear Parvathi,
Then ask ur mom to thrisdi shuthi poda sollunga..:-D.
Things I derived from your post:
1. Even weird retarded stuff like food science is really really tough to get into because everyone wants to do dumb courses like that..
2. I now know that East Michigan sucks.. So next time I see a *cough* next to anything Suchi writes, I know it's crap!
3. I, for the first time know that Suchi actually studied Computer Science once upon a time.. And her spastic ways on a computer always had me thinking otherwise..
4. I now have to hunt around for a wedding gift for Suchi! Damn it!!
5. Everytime I read 'rejects in the worst possible way', I keep thinking of dung smeared on the letters..
6. Does getting rejected 6 times in 2 weeks feel as bad for universities as it does otherwise? (Of course, I would never know! :P)
...
But in spite, I still know what Suchi really wants..
A nice BBQ burger at Baywatch..
I'm ready whenever you are! :-)
And.. umm...
Your comment on my blog has mysteriously disappeared...
So, I'd like you to re-post that
'I love you too' comment, so that my stud status really gets back up..
Thank you...
everyone is in the pits..u have company..atleast with me around
hey, what happened to the rest of the universities?
@ thenraj- will do
@ arvind- Ready for a BBQ today :-)))))))))
@ mad scientist- and i might officially disown u if u get SUNY now
@ ganesh- still waiting..and waiting..to hear from them
@ schmetterling- I didnt know Baywatch was a fav of urs too
Chill., things will get better.
Hi Parvathi
I finished my undergrad in Biotech last yr. My friend and I applied to grad schools last yr.I got rejected by 6/7 of them by Mar31. I had given up on grad school and decided to go to a B school! when I got an admit from my 7th univ. Now, I am in grad school in the US, but my friend wasnt so lucky.(very smart guy he was).
He stayed back in India working as a research tech (in the same lab he did his Btech proj in), and now he is going to join UCSD! In spite of pressure frm friends and family to take up a job/internship elsewhere, he was confident and focussed about what he wanted.
When one is at career crossroads, it takes reflection and an evaluation of priorities to take a decision. I will you all the best. (sounds like a bump letter, doesnt it:)
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