Starting January, I'm going to be working in another lab that we are collaborating with.
Everytime I get excited thinking about the oppurtunity, exhaustion overwhelms me physically and mentally.
I'm not just tired. I'm exhausted to the point that when I step out of my department in the evening, I have a building need to just break down and cry over a glass of wine at home.The frustration at work because of a number of factors just keeps building up. I'm cranky and play my videogames to loosen up and sleep.
In between all this, I've been sick. I had a wonderful spell of having my period for over 5 weeks that has just left me mildly anemic and pissed off. I have 96 hours of vacation saved up which I haven't used and would love to just take off and do nothing. I'm going to be working over the break and this might actually be the longest time I can spend with The Boy but I'm going to be at work catching up for the crazy next six months ahead.I haven't gone out with friends in ages because I'm busy catching up on cleaning during the weekend. I haven't gone out to a bar in forever. I just want to spend my weekends cleaning and sleeping. Financially, I feel screwed over. With the new apartment move in and buying new furniture, its becoming really stressful.

I'm sick and tired of people asking me about my wedding plans.I don't have wedding plans. I don't even know when I'm going back for my wedding. I don't even know if I can pay for my own tickets to go home after three years. I'm not going to be around to 'plan' my wedding. Its going to be on Skype. And no, I can't just quit my job. Because I've worked hard to get a fucking degree and get a job and I intend on hanging on to it. And yes, it sounds yuck but we will be apart till we both get a job in the same place. And no, I don't know how we're going to do it but if we're doing it now it shouldn't be different. And really, in a perfect world, I would love to take six months off and get a bridal package and massages and pedicures and manicures and go around Tamil Nadu looking for 'that' perfect saree, but we live in a funny world. And yes, we don't have the time to plan everything around the wedding because we are too busy planning the rest of our lives together which is after the wedding.

Writing helps.
Not really.
Hopefully Bioshock will.